Augustine's Quest for the Self: A Threefold Journey

Michael W. DeLashmutt, (University of Glasgow)

Introduction

Augustine of Hippo was a true trailblazer in two senses of the word. In the first instance, Augustine provides us with the first glimpse of a self-worth-writing. Confessions is generally accorded to be the earliest extant example of autobiographical writing in the West. He blazed the trail of a written and textually embodied selfpromoting his own "I" as a character worthy of our recognition and attention. In the process, Augustine's trailblazing took on an interior and subjective turn. By writing the "self", Augustine found the path within, and blazed an interior trail built from his own reflections. 
As with any journey that one takes, his mission within was made possible through three key elements: the map, the journey itself, and the energy for the quest. When I consider what Augustine viewed selfhood to be, I like to think of these three elements as three components to Augustine's journey of self-discovery. The map which we could imagine Augustine taking along with him on this trek would be his functionally dualistic anthropology, which recognises the binary between the inner world of the mind/memory and the outer world of physical perceptions. Exhaustive details are written into this map in On the Trinity, where Augustine describes the inner world in terms of the trinitarian configuration, which he sees as analogous to the Holy Trinity of God. The journey itself carries him along the reflexive path within, and is fixed on discovering a true portrait of self, and a greater awareness of the Divine. Augustine describes the process and the findings of his quest in his spiritual autobiography, Confessions. To accomplish his journey, Augustine relies upon the energy given to him through contact with the Spirit of Christ. In his small and often ignored text, The Teacher, Augustine highlights the role played by Christology and Pneumatology in the reflective and pedagogical activities of the mind and memory.
Anthropological Cartography: On The Trinity

We begin the task of reconstructing Augustine's inner ourney by reflecting on the concept of self presented in his magisterial text, On the Trinity. The work is first and foremost theological, as it goes to great lengths to explain what Augustine considers to be the orthodox doctrine of the Trinity:

We certainly seek a trinity, - not any trinity, but that Trinity which is God, and the true and supreme and only God. Let my hearers then wait, for we are still seeking. And no one justly finds fault with such a search, if at least he who seeks that which either to know or to utter is most difficult, is steadfast in the faith.[1]

His journey to find the Trinity causes him to turn away from the exterior world of physical perceptions, to the inner world of the soul. To be sure, the soul serves as an inadequate mirror for the Holy Trinity, and we soon discover that Augustine, despite uncovering a staggering degree of inner trinities, finds that the only triad which can be analogous to the "Trinity which is God" is the "Trinity which is God", itself. We get a sense from Augustine that these analogies are the best we humans can discover, and he finds comfort in these examples, as "our feeble mind perhaps can gaze upon these more familiarly and more easily" than can it gaze upon the Trinity itself.[2]  

The two most prominent trinities of the soul are the triads of mind, love, and knowledge[3] and memory, love, and will.[4] Yet Augustine finds that even within these two favoured trinities, further trinitarian discoveries can be made. This would seem to indicate that trinitarian formulations in Books IX, X, and XI are not hard-fast or concrete trinities of the mind, but rather nebulous analogies which can never perfectly match the endless complexity of the human soul with the endless complexity of the Divine. Augustine's pursuit of trinities is always caught short, as no functional grouping can adequately serve as an image, analogy, or example of the one Holy Trinity.In Book XV, having spent the better part of the last 6 books reflecting on the nature of a trinitarian self, Augustine ends his quest by offering a prayer of admiration to the Holy Trinity. He reveals to the reader that the human mind, though infinitely more complex than anything else within the created order - the very pinnacle of creation's own upper heights - is still inadequate in describing the mystery of the Divine Trinity.  
Even though humans have been created as "rational souls", the Trinity of God is not an easy thing to be understood.[5] Appreciation of the Holy Trinity is an activity of revealed wisdom and not learned knowledge. The image of God in humanity is something which grows into the likeness of the Trinity, and something which only exists contingently in its present state. For Augustine, the enigmatic nature of self-knowledge, and the enigmatic nature of trinitarian knowledge, reveals two things. First, trinitarian likeness is that which develops through time, and can only be made manifest in the future.[6] This means that humanity, as a creation in the image of God, is grounded in its own future becoming, and not in the present manifestation of being. Secondly, despite the eschatological nature of our trinitarian becoming, the incomprehensible God is always to be the object of the soul's pursuit.[7] Knowledge of God and knowledge of self are only truly intelligible through the acceptance of wisdom through revelation, which when reduced to a practical level, is nothing short of a confession of faith: faith in God's activity in the past, and faith in God's promise of becoming in the future.  
The Journey Within - Confessions
6 From On the Trinity we gather that the inner world is truly diverse. It is a 'place' which though without material substance and form, is still immeasurably complex and active. Augustine partially discovers the inner cartography of this world by reflecting upon and refiguring his own life. This inward pursuit leads Augustine to discover truth, not only the truth about the God who is Trinity, but truth about himself as well.
Reflexion and Reflexivity
7 Although it is true that reflexivity is the mechanism by which Augustine arrives at his trinitarian analogies in On the Trinity, we only get a glimpse of the process of reflection itself in his early work Confessions. Here, reflexivity and reflection are far more explicitly prominent than they are elsewhere in his writings. Augustine uses the capacity for reflection to examine the faculty of memory, the nature of the lived life, and the process of reflection itself.
8 The first nine books of Confessions are Augustine's reflections upon his own life. In these wonderfully colourful books, he recounts the various physical and spiritual experiences which encapsulate his life up to the point of writing. Augustine transforms the reflection of Books I-IX into reflexivity in Book X, by moving the object of his reflection from the past onto the act of reflecting itself in the present of Augustine's writing. Here in Book X, Augustine's reflexivity plumbs the depth of memory, and uncovers the manner in which the wealth of stored physical sensory perceptions - as well as internal spiritual movements - are brought to mind. It is here that his quest for God is couched in a quest for a true knowledge of self. Let me know you, for you are the God who knows me; let me recognise you as you have recognised me. You are the power of my soul, come into it and make it fit for yourself, so that you may have it and hold it without stain or wrinkle.[8]
9 Memory, in Confessions, becomes the entity through which Augustine experiences the presence of the Divine. More important than the soul, or the animating spirit, the memory is a unique gift to humans, through which they may discover the Divine.[9] It is described in Confessions in the most vivid of terms.It is considered to be like 'vast cloisters' and the 'vast cache of the mind'.It is spoken of as a 'prodigious [...] vast immeasurable sanctuary'.[10] It is where 'treasures' are stored, which reflect past experiences, and give one a sense of temporal continuity.[11] Yet the objects of the memory do not completely account for the entirety of its holdings.Mathematics, principles of numbers and dimensions, aesthetics,feelings, forgetfulness and the images and memories taken from literature all account for some of the many items which are in memory, yet relate to no temporal point of origination.[12] This is a troubling subject which leads Augustine in Book X.17 to transition from his reflections to praise. The memory and all of its 'awe-inspiring [...] profound and incalculable complexity' is more than Augustine can understand.[13] Because of its unfathomable nature, Augustine is unable to find in memory the presence of God. To find God, Augustine states, 'I must go beyond memory too [...] I must pass beyond memory to find you, my true Good, my sure Sweetness. But where will the search lead me[...]if I have no memory of you?'[14]
10 The realisation that God is not found in the knowing of memory, but in the unknowing, is akin to how in On the Trinity Augustine realises that the Trinity of God is only found in the searching, and not in the grasping. God's presence in memory is found in the pursuit of God, and not in his possession. Ironically, the God who is present (by not being present) in Augustine's memory is also the point of reference by which Augustine is to know himself. The enigma of self-knowledge is cloaked within the veil of theological vision.
Reflection and Refiguration
11 Reflection upon his life, and upon the act of reflection itself, leads Augustine into the refiguring of his own life, through the language of confessional re-narration. His Confessions is more than a history; it is a fictionalised autobiography which provides a privileged glance into Augustine's life through the refracting lens of confessional belief. Like the internal/external dialectic recognised by Augustine to be constitutive of the human person, Confessions describe both Augustine's internal and external developments. On the one hand, in Confessions, Augustine relays to the reader his various relocations throughout the ancient Roman world, his various relationships with family, lovers and friends, and further details of his factual life. Yet in addition to the merely factual Augustine, Confessions uniquely introduces the reader to Augustine's inner psychic world. He tells the tale of his inner struggle, his loves, losses, opinions, and the inner workings of his mind and memory. Yet what makes this autobiography a true refiguring of his life is the continued presence of confessional reinterpretation throughout the movements of this work. Couched between the discordant episodes of his autobiography are passages which reach from his extant retelling into his prior experience through bursts of psalmic declaration. For example, when Augustine retells a particularly painful point in his life, such as the sudden death of a close childhood friend in Book IV, he reinterprets his past grief through his present-day faith in the Christian doctrine of the Resurrection of the Dead.  There is a level of complexity to his recollection which combines past events with present beliefs. He continues in this pattern throughout the whole of the work. Thus, Augustine reads the story of his life through the language of his nascent belief, and calls into being a reinterpretation of his life through religious-narrative language. In so doing he overcomes the discordance of a life fraught with change by implementing an overarching hermeneutic which reads his life by way of a greater context.  
12 Augustine tells this story about himself and engages the reader to follow suit.he self as subject is objectified and engaged from a distance, yet still appropriated from within, thus laying bare one's motives, sins,intents, memories and actions. Through the act of confessing, Augustine's self-reflection takes on a curative power which brings relief to the conflicting guilt of past sin and brings concordance to the discordant shift of life from pre-conversion to post-conversion. By entering into the act of detailed self-reflection and refiguring, the wounded soul journeys inward into the 'vast cloisters' of the memory, where the whole self - past, present and future - is led into the healing presence of the divine.[15] This process of self-(re)making in Confessions is an approach to identity which reflects the sacramental tradition of the church. Through remembering and refiguring, Augustine embodies the creative and poetic act of mimesis which is rooted in the Christian Eucharist. As all recipients of the Eucharistic bread and wine are commanded by Christ to 'do this in my remembrance',[16] in similar fashion Augustine seeks to make his own life into the remembrance of Christ.

The Power for the Journey - Pneumatic Epistemology

13 As we have seen so far, for Augustine only God can make God's self known, and only God can make one's self known. The centrality of the Divine, and particularly the Holy Spirit (the Spirit of Christ) in the inner workings of the mind, is perhaps the most definitive aspect of Augustine's anthropology.The spiritual nature of Augustine's reflexivity makes to "gaze within" a spiritual action. As he peers within, as aided by the Spirit, he is able to further understand the manner in which the Divine works 'behind the scenes' of his own mind.
14 The God who is the 'power of the soul' is described in On the Trinity, as being actively engaged with the communication of wisdom.In Augustine's dialectic of wisdom and knowledge in the Trinity (Book XII), there is a clear distinction between information which is gathered through the senses (knowledge) and information which is emanated from heavenly sources (wisdom). Wisdom is that which is received by the spiritual faculties, and that which is pneumatically imputed to the mind a priori. Though reason is employed in the understanding of wisdom, the content of wisdom is Christ himself, who is made intelligible to the human mind through the Spirit. Divine wisdom is universally at the very root of human memory. For Augustine, it acts as the call of God which beckons the unregenerate to turn to God and recognise the source of their call to faith. Though the call of wisdom echoes in the cloisters of the memory it is distinct from, yet enfolded within, the human soul.[17]
15 Augustine understood the biblical promise of the Spirit to be the source of truth and wisdom. This does not mean that Augustine advocated that the Spirit offered new revelation or new truth, but that the Spirit is that which points to a truth and a wisdom which are as old as creation itself. The Spirit directs the human mind to the truth of God's salvific activity, which harkens back to the beginning of God's creative and redemptive work in history. To this end, the knowledge of God is at the bedrock of all knowledge.[18]
16 By placing the emphasis on God's illuminative role in the acquisition, categorisation,and processing of knowledge Augustine makes the whole of the interior life contingent upon the vivification of God. This is not the fusion of the human mind with the Divine Mind, nor is it the illumination the abrogation of the human intellect. Rather, it is recognition of the divine activity in human thought, both in the case of mystical knowledge, and in the case of natural knowledge. The former is understood directly from God, and the latter is understood by means of divine illumination.[19]
The Teacher
17 In The Teacher Augustine explicitly describes the terms of his pneumatic epistemology. The text, which is a brief dialogue between Augustine and his son Adeodatus, explores the nature of language, the basics of semiotics, and the possibility of Divine instruction. The dialogue begins by questioning the very nature and possibility of language, and concludes by asserting that language cannot teach anything; only Christ, through the Spirit, is able to facilitate pedagogy.
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In the first section,[20] Augustine argues that dialogues are used to teach and remind, but the words which are part of any given dialogue are merely symbols which signify the underlying meaning of a communication event.[21] He concludes that speech acts are only symbolic gestures, because nothing can be known apart from the use of symbols.[22] Symbols, or the underlying meaning of symbols, are the important elements of the dialogue and not simply the words which are their signifiers.[23] Words, Augustine concludes, really are of no real value, because they represent something other than themselves.The humorous example of this problem is illustrated when Augustine attempts to convince Adeodatus that he is not a man (homo), because the word is simply the amalgamation of two syllables (ho-mo). Adeodatus is a man, but he is more than a man. He is not simply the name, 'man' but is the thing which underlies the symbol of man. Furthermore, Augustine states that

as soon as those words are pronounced, I cannot but think that the conclusion has reference to what is signified by these two syllables (ho-mo) and that by reason of the rule which naturally has dominance, namely, that when signs are heard the attention is directed to the realities signified.[24]

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The use of words is a tricky matter, as words can easily become minced, and meaning can be difficult to find amidst the slough. Augustine states:

treating words by means of words is as complicated a business as interlocking and rubbing the fingers of one hand with the fingers of the other, where it is scarcely discernible, except by the one doing it, which fingers are itching and which are relieving the itch.[25]

Despite their shortcomings, words have a function in teaching and communicating, but their role is always subservient to the greater role of instruction.[26]

Words exist that we may use them; but we use them for the purpose of teaching. Just as teaching is superior to talking, so talking is superior to words. Therefore, instruction, is far superior to words.[27]

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Augustine also examines how communication can occur on a non-verbal level, which goes even further to support his thesis that words are not the same as communication events.[28]

There are interesting descriptions of people who illustrate things through signs, which are incomplete descriptions of the things they describe, but still allow communication and learning to occur on the part of the inquirer.[29]

It is thought by Augustine that when one perceives the whole via an incomplete (as in the case of the fowler who shows a bystander how he does his craft, and the bystander learns by watching), that there is something within the learner which fills in the missing bits of knowledge. Because words (which are the individual units of discourse) leave large gaps in the meaning transmitted, something besides dialogue must accomplish understanding. This leads Augustine to infer that the 'something besides' is in fact a supernatural force which operates behind the scenes.If it is not even with words that one teaches[30], and if one cannot teach another, than God is the only one who is truly the teacher of the soul.[31] Words, communication acts, and dialogues only prompt us to seek the truth within us, which is rooted in God.[32] The only 'teacher' is Christ, who dwells in our inner mind, and is himself the source of truth and the light of reason. The one who is taught is not taught by words or signs or by a human teacher, but 'by the realities themselves, made manifest to him by God revealing them to his inner self.'[33]

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In this way, Augustine follows the example of Jesus who in Matthew said:

But you are not to be called rabbi, for you have one teacher, and you are all students.  And call no one your father on earth, for you have one Father-the one in heaven. Nor are you to be called instructors, for you have one instructor, the Messiah.[34]

Augustine builds upon this command of Jesus and asserts that based upon his pneumatic epistemology; there can be no unmediated instruction by teachers to students, but only instruction which is directly facilitated through the Teacher, namely Jesus Christ. At least, this is the sentiment of Augustine's dialogue partner Adeodatus:

As for me, I have learned, thanks to being reminded by your words, that words do no more than prompt man to learn, and that what appears to be, to a considerable extent, the thought of the speaker expressing himself, really amounts to extremely little. Moreover, as to whether what is said is true, He alone teaches who when He spoke externally reminded us that He dwells within us. I shall now, with His help, Love Him and the more ardently the more I progress in learning.[35]

Conclusion
22 Augustine shows a theological understanding of the self, which is in the form of a quest for a wholly unified subjectivity. He leads us along an anthropological cartography which maps out the self's inner and outer domains, and explores the functionally trinitarian nature of the soul. The journey is one which reflects on the whole of the lived life, and finds, upon its reflexive turn, humanity's inner need for the Divine.  Yet ultimately, the entire process is seen by Augustine as having a pneumatological and Christological element, in that it is the Spirit of Christ who is actively involved in all inner reflective moves. Augustine, in asserting the centrality of the Divine, rewrites the self in a way which explicitly roots all anthropology in theology.
23 The challenge for the modern reader is to reflect upon this ancient Christian source in what is now a multi-cultural and multi-confessional world.  Is Augustine's vision of a theologically grounded self still feasible today, or, like so many ancient roads, has his path been blocked by "progress"?

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[1]Augustine, On the Trinity, trans. by Stephen Mckenna, C.SS.R., The Fathers of the Church: A New Translation, 45 (Washington, D.C.: The Catholic University of America Press, 1963), IX.1.

[2]Augustine, On the Trinity, IX.2 (and quote above).

[3] Augustine, On the Trinity, IX.2-11.

[4] Augustine, On the Trinity, X.

[5] Augustine, On the Trinity, XV.7.

[6] Augustine, On the Trinity, XIV.9.

[7] Augustine, On the Trinity, XV.2.

[8] Augustine, Confessions, trans. by R.S. Pine-Coffin (London: Penquin, 1961) X.1 (italics signify Augustine's quotation of Ephesians 5.27).

[9] Augustine, Confessions, X.8.

[10] Augustine, Confessions, X.8.

[11] Augustine, Confessions, X.8; X.9.

[12] Augustine, Confessions, X.9-16.

[13] Augustine, Confessions, X.17.

[14] Augustine, Confessions, X.17.

[15] Pamela Bright. "Singing the Psalms: Augustine and Athanasius on the Integration of the Self" in The Whole and Divided Self ed. by David E. Aune and John McCarthy (New York: The Crossroad Publishing Company, 1997), pp. 115-129 (p. 127).

[16] Luke 22.19b - t?t? p??ete e? t? µ? ??µ??s??.

[17] Augustine, On the Trinity, XIV.15.

[18] Charles Norris Cochrane, Christianity and Classical Culture: A Study of Thought and Action from Augustus to Augustine (Oxford: Clarendon Press, 1940), p.430.

[19] Etienne Gilson, The Christian Philosophy of Saint Augustine (London: Victor Gollancz , 1961), p. 92.

[20] My outline format and content are borrowed from the introduction to The Teacher by Joseph M. Colleran, in The Greatness of the Soul and The Teacher, Ancient Christian Writers: The Works of the Fathers in Translation, 9 (London: Newman, 1949), pp. 116-117.

[21] Augustine, The Teacher, in The Greatness of the Soul and The Teacher, trans. by Joseph M. Colleran, 1.1-2; 2.3-4.

[22] Augustine, The Teacher, 3.5-6; 4.7-6.18.

[23] Augustine, The Teacher, 8.21-24.

[24] Augustine, The Teacher, 24 (emphasis mine).

[25] Augustine, The Teacher, 14.

[26] Augustine, The Teacher, 10.29.

[27] Augustine, The Teacher, 26.

[28] Augustine, The Teacher, 10.32.

[29] Augustine, The Teacher, 32.

[30] Augustine, The Teacher, 10.33-35; 12.39-40; 14.45.

[31] Augustine, The Teacher, 11.38; 14.45.

[32] Augustine, The Teacher, 11.36-14.46.

[33] Augustine, The Teacher, 40

[34] Matthew 23.7-10.

[35] Augustine, The Teacher, 46.

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