CHAPTER 3

FORGIVENESS

I’ve been through many lifetimes

I’ve seen many an unkind deed.

I’ve felt anger, hatred, jealousy

And left chaos in my stead.

I’ve felt so tired and weary

Struggling through lifetimes over again.

But each time this dimension pulled me down

And trapped me once again.

I feel I’ve kind of failed

My low self-esteem being great.

Feeling unloved and deserted

Alone, I’ve felt fear and hate.

Within my head, within my heart

I know that others care.

And yet I can’t quite accept this love

Because such doubt is there.

May we cease our wars and fears,

Our petty differences and greed.

And know that what we do to another

We do to ourselves – indeed.

This world is beauty, and it’s love -

Let us not destroy it now.

If we could but understand how much we share

And see our Oneness somehow.

Our time has come to awaken now

To what we’ve all been through.

We are not judged – we all are loved

And forgiveness of self is what we must do.

So let us understand ourselves –

That we’ve all been everyone.

We share more than we’d ever dream

Around our solar sun.

© C. Hamilton 2000

Where does forgiveness fit in with the ascension of the planet? Well, without forgiveness, mankind would not be able to progress towards his eventual enlightenment. Forgiveness is not easy. We need to understand what we need to forgive. If we can understand our own journey, we will begin to understand others, and what they need to experience. Once we have done that, we will be on our way towards forgiving ourselves as well as others. Lack of forgiveness is holding up the spiritual progress of the human soul. It is the major cause of every problem mankind has ever faced, lifetime after lifetime. It results in most of the illnesses we face, as we harbour them within our bodies. It causes disagreements and dissatisfaction through not seeing that what we perceive in others is actually a part of our own make-up that we have not acknowledged. It brings mistrust and misunderstanding on a greater scale than one could ever imagine. It is non-forgiveness that causes most of our anger and resentment.

I have felt anger and frustration many times in my life. Usually it is a time when I am refusing to face the real obstacle that this occurs. I might feel anger at a co-worker because I am asked to do something I do not want to do at that time. I may be busy doing something else, and the anger just springs up because I am annoyed at being interrupted. I have come to recognise that this is because I have not allowed myself to understand his point of view. I have been totally engrossed in my own work and have found it hard to pull my mind away to follow his instructions. This creates a frustration and searing of my own feelings because I cannot express myself. I feel I cannot forgive him for his interruption at the time. This is only a small example. There are many times I have felt so angry that I feel I cannot forgive others. Yet if we reflect on it, it is usually something we are not facing that causes this anger.

On reflection of our life, we see that most of the time this non-forgiveness is of ourselves. Many of the repressed feelings that have been hidden all our lives are now coming to the surface to be healed. All these repressed emotions and feelings need to see the light in order for them to be finally cured.

It is now coming to our attention how many times underhand and unfair abuse has occurred within the higher ranks of our churches and governments, where we would have once least expected it. We are beginning to hear many stories. It seems that politicians are being exposed for various illegal and sexual issues. President Clinton’s sex scandal was one such incident. Here in Australia a certain politician faced a scandal for illegal use of a government phone card. Many incidents in politics are being investigated. It seems like scandal is common. It appears that every secret is coming out into the open to be revealed. The Bible said "nothing shall be hidden from their eyes". There will come a time when we will no longer be able to have any secrets. Our auras will reflect any feelings we have, and others will be able to read them.

The sexual indiscretions with the church leaders that we have heard about may well be the fact that they have been deprived throughout their lives. It may be that deprivation in any form is unbalanced, and the soul searches for that balance in ways that are not "politically correct". We cannot condemn anyone unless we walk in their shoes, but we can realise that these things are now being brought into the light. In the case of the priests, this could well be because they have deprived themselves of sexual union all their lives, and are trying to find their life’s experience through whatever means they can. Incidentally it is through sexual expression that the human soul can find its true expression of self. Priests have denied themselves for years, by being celibate, and yet this is not the way the Creator intended it. We were always meant to experience sexual union as a beautiful experience between souls.

So many of our feelings of guilt revolve around sex. What was always meant to be a natural form of expression, has been dirtied and made to be ugly by many of the church’s clergymen. Yet we do need to understand ourselves, and it is through a natural expression of orgasm through sexual intercourse that this journey towards the self is leading us. We must find the means within ourselves to forgive any and all of the feelings of guilt we have carried throughout our lives regarding sex. Understanding ourselves is half the battle. We have to write a new slate for ourselves. Forgiveness is our pathway towards releasing our negative feelings and finding the unconditional love within.

We have all faced lifetimes where we have made contracts with God. We have been the priests and nuns of ages past and have made contracts not to marry, or not to own money, because we had given our lives to God. This is why so many are finding their lives lonely, or finding themselves poor. The cellular memory remembers. We are now being given the opportunity to release these old vows, as they no longer serve us. It is now time for us to re-new these contracts and begin new ones. We have reached a stage in human evolution where we now have the opportunity to accept the new energy we are being offered and take up the mantle of self-forgiveness and renewal. Forgiveness is the first step towards Self-love. Self-forgiveness is the key to the kingdom. It not only opens the door. It is the hinges on the door and the key to the door. Self-forgiveness is the first lesson in reaching that wonderful being who is our Greater Self – the being that is our own Angel within us. Once we release any negative feelings we have, we find the unconditional love within.

When we fail to forgive another, we are actually seeing something that we cannot forgive or accept within our own nature. It may be something we had done in the past and cannot forgive ourselves for, or even remember, as we have pushed it so far back into our minds. Or it may be something deep within our soul, for which we feel guilty, carried over from another, or other, lifetimes, and it is still there today, deep within our cellular memories.

The bottom line is, whenever we feel something like this – a withdrawing, or a withholding of our feelings, we can always be sure that it is SOMETHING that we haven’t faced within ourselves that is triggering this feeling and holding us back. When we pass from this life, one thing that can hold us back from our eventual meeting with the light is the tightening feeling of non-forgiveness. When we refuse to forgive another, you can be sure that there is always an element of something within ourselves that we are refusing to face.

The only way we can stop this blockage and face the person, or overcome the feelings within ourselves, is to forgive them. Even if we are not consciously aware of what we are doing, it is by letting go – completely letting go of this feeling of tightness that enfolds us, that we begin towards the path of forgiveness not only of others, but most importantly of all, of ourselves.

There is always some underlying feeling within ourselves that needs to be dealt with, when we have this tightness. ‘To forgive is Divine’ - this is one of the great teachings of the Masters. Forgiveness is the most gracious way towards reaching enlightenment as it is in so doing, that we reach a deeper understanding, not only of others, but of ourselves and our whole unified nature as part of creation.

Like everyone else who walks this planet in human form, I have many such feelings towards others. It is inevitable that we will have some times in our life’s experiences where we find we are holding back, withdrawing, or blocking what is coming. We find that we cannot face certain people. It may be something they should have done, or something that they haven't done that we feel they should have done. It may even be a feeling of conflict, anger, or animosity that we feel towards them. We do not know why, and yet the feeling is there. They may have done something that we are consciously aware of, or it may even be something that we just sense, without knowing why.

Journey of Our Souls

Our souls are not new to physical life. Most of us have had many lifetimes on different planets, as well as on planet earth. We have lived on planets within this solar system as well as in other systems many light years away. Some have had lives on Venus or Mars before they were made inhabitable to our lifeforms, and also on Maldek – a planet, which was destroyed many millions of years ago, and is now part of an asteroid belt. We learnt many things through our previous lives. When we look back and see why we did certain things, and understand ourselves, then we will see why others are also experimenting and learning from their own experiences.

We began our existence as sparks of living energy. These sparks were innocent souls. We came to experiment. Much of the learning of the arts evolved on Venus. But there grew a time when those souls learned to discriminate between themselves and those less fortunate. This created vanity, pride, bitterness and separation. Through a string of varied circumstances, fear of those who were different from us was infiltrated into our souls.

Those that lived on Mars learnt communication and survival skills. But they also learned to fight. They learned about war. They carried over their pride, greed and bitterness from previous lifetimes. In time they remembered many of the experiences from earlier lifetimes. Those experiences included helplessness at an inability to help others who had chosen insanity as a test for them. This occurred almost at a point in their evolution where they were ready to move to a higher vibration. They had agreed to accept these souls to their planet as they felt they were ready to help them. They found the challenge too difficult and unfortunately they became confused, frustrated and discouraged. It had the effect of blocking their further evolution and many did not evolve as they might have done.

The wars, the differences, the jealousies and pride, were carried into future lifetimes on different planets such as Maldek, when Mars became inhabitable. There they faced other experiences. When this planet was destroyed, the souls were taken as light bodies in cocoons to the oceans of earth, where the dolphins tendered them until it was time for the souls to be reborn on earth. It was decided by the Pleiadian Emissaries of Light, who were our guardians, that these groups of souls would not continue to have recall of past lives on this planet, Earth, as this had proved to be too painful in the past. So the memory cells were blocked when the souls were born again in bodies on this planet. Here though, communication was freely experienced with the dolphins, the mer-people and the fairies. They were very visible and communicable to the new Earth souls, and they were able to relate to them one on one. This was in the early Lemurian days on planet Earth.

The hardest part of growing for these souls, however, was the blockage that they had carried over from other lives – that of non-forgiveness. The memory cells held all their experiences from previous lives within these new bodies. They found it too hard to really forgive themselves for their failed efforts. This is where most of the problems of these souls really began, as they had great difficulty forgiving themselves, and yet they did not even consciously remember why!

We have to understand how forgiveness relates to our souls. We have lived many, many lives and sometimes the cells of our bodies carry memories from other existences that we have blocked.

Rebirth, or Reincarnation

Reincarnation has often been misunderstood. Many people have thought it means that the personality of the soul incarnates again, but it is not quite like that. Once a soul has passed over, that segment, or aspect, of the soul that lived, does not "come back" again. A soul is whole in its entirety, and only a portion of a soul will incarnate in a body at the one time. The particular facet of the diamond that comes to experience life again is another facet of the soul that still needs to be polished.

If we could imagine the soul as a complete book, each page being a year in the life of that soul. All the pages follow one another, as each year follows another. Each chapter represents one lifetime. All the pages connect to make the chapter that is one lifetime. Each chapter is a different lifetime. Some are shorter, others are longer. All the chapters have to connect in some way, but they are all different, yet each chapter is separate by itself. This is what our soul’s journey is like. Each lifetime we experience a different part of our soul’s particular journey and learn a different set of experiences.

During the time when the Christ walked the Earth, it was accepted that re-birth was a given among the some groups of Jews, the Gnostics and the Essenes. The Essenes were discovered when the Dead Scrolls were uncovered and many believe now that a lot of Jesus’ teachings came from them. Unfortunately it was written out of the pages of our Holy Book sometime in the fourth century. It was then that the feminine energy was taken out of the church, and male dominance ruled. There are many reasons this was done, but the most predominant one was that the church wanted to maintain power over the populace. If the people were free to realise that they could re-experience life again in another body after they died, then they would not be beholden to the church. Fear was then the tool to hold people in obedience to the church authorities.

Karma, or repaying for our ‘wrongs’, is not a punishment. Rather it is a form of choosing to make up for something we feel we have failed to do, or that we have done ‘wrongly’. There is no right and wrong, for all is a learning experience. One of the greatest forms of learning, however, is learning to forgive ourselves for any oversight or for anything we feel we have not done right. The law of karma is cause and effect. Whatever we send out will inevitably come back to us. Whatever feelings we hold onto, even if it is fear of something, will be always drawn back to us.

The act of forgiving is learning to have faith that what we need is already accomplished as we let go of prejudices, judgments, grudges and selfish feelings. There can be no greater healing for mankind, or for the planet itself, than that of forgiveness. When people of the world forgive themselves, and release their past, peace for everyone will surely follow. Forgiveness is total acceptance and letting go of all, or any, of our past that we are still holding onto. If we cannot forgive, we are blocking the natural flow of life, and preventing our lives from moving forward. Likewise, we are also blocking the movement of the planet herself to move onward towards its transition.

Many of us do not even realise that we are blocking our energies, or why. We may be holding a grudge against somebody, or even feel we cannot forgive ourselves. We may feel that a loved one who has passed on does not forgive us and we feel guilt, as it may be us that we cannot forgive. It is imperative, if we are to move onwards towards the awakening of our souls, that we learn to forgive ourselves. We have to see ourselves for who we really are. It is time for us to wake up and remember who we are. It is time for us to wake up and remember why we came here. And it is time for us to wake up and forgive our brothers and sisters, and ourselves. We are not who others see us as, or even as we think we are ourselves. We are far more than that. We are a child of God, a spark of Divine - a being of light. We are, in fact, in everything that is around us.

Who Am I?

I have often wondered who I really am. I have had countless experiences with so many different people, and to each I was a different person. I am a mother to my children, a wife to my husband, a friend to my friends, an employee to my boss, a co-worker to my workmates, a daughter to my parents, a sister to my siblings, etc. To each of these relationships I am a different person, and they, no doubt, all see me differently. But I am none of these. In reality I have a vast multi-dimensional soul that experiences many things. So do you. If we can see how minute this part of ourselves really is, we will see that holding grudges against somebody is just wasted energy. To let go and let God is really all we need to do.

We are beautiful beings of light. We cannot perceive this most of the time, because we are so caught up in this world with all its troubles, fears, diseases and impurities. Yet this is our true essence. I asked the question of my guides ‘Who am I?’ I received the following.

You are the wonder of all that you see around you. You are the beauty of the ocean, pounding upon the shore; you are the beauty of the peace that the ocean is; you are all that you see and so much more. You have the gift of physical life. This is only a portion of who you are. Do you not notice all around you that people are changing. They are being affected by the awakening of the earth herself in myriads of ways. The earth is reflecting back mankind’s own responses, with great upheavals throughout the whole planet.

Can you not notice the politics of the world changing? These are but one of the many subtle differences. Your economic system is another. These are reflections of what is happening within the changing soul of mankind – the changing perceptions of man.

As man questions within himself the rightness or wrongness of his own life, so too will these responses be reflected outward by your Mother Earth. All is One. And what happens within the mind of man strongly affects the outward reactions of the planet. You are not separate and never were. All is happening through the changing perceptions of man, and the questioning that is going on all around you…

…For all those who suffer, your peace is assured, as you come to the understanding of who you are, and why you are here. For you have chosen this path for your own glory and your own learning of life. This is an honoured thing to do.

For all those who are finding stress in your life, you are also blessed. For the answer to your yearnings for peace is only a step away. You have this glory and beauty awaiting you as you step into your new day. Go with peace and know you are blessed.

We really must release the stress in our lives by learning to forgive, beginning with ourselves. When we have learned the lesson of forgiveness within ourselves, we will find that all the anger, hurt, jealousy, pride, and hatred we ever felt towards another human being, will just dissolve. If we can just do it once, we will find that the next time is easier, and the next time easier again. We will find that there is no more animosity against anyone, when we have learned to forgive at the very core of the problem – within our own selves, of ourselves. When we truly love our selves, our Greater Selves, we cannot hold a grudge against another. We will see things in a new light. We see in them a reflection of ourselves, and when we release any negative feelings about ourselves, then they will mirror back to us who we truly are.

Understanding who we are is important in seeing the reasons behind much of what we feel. Many of us are carrying ancestral karma. Some are here in this lifetime to heal many generations of karma from our fathers and forefathers. This is why the ego is having such a battle. When we begin to transform our inner feelings, we release all karma from all of our lives and of those of our family who went before us. This is why so many are feeling burdened by all that is happening to them. When we transform karma through forgiveness, this brings forgiveness through all generations of our family history. Fear of the ego (separation) being lost is causing people to fear. But the opportunity for learning and growth for many generations past is here for us this lifetime if we can let go of the ego and forgive others, and realise we are all one. If we allow resentment and non-forgiveness to damage our souls, we will not be able to move forward with the planet when it raises its vibration and transitions into the new age.

Negative Thoughts

I feel that negative thoughts are like weeds. If they are allowed to grow they multiply and are very hard to get rid of. They have to be constantly monitored and pulled out. The best thing we can do is to get rid of them all as soon as we are aware of them, and replace them with thoughts of compassion, kindness and sharing, and allow our light to shine on all without exception. Just by acknowledging our thoughts, or observing them, we will soon be able to release them altogether. Just watch yourself next time you feel anger toward another. What is really going on in your mind? Can you find it in yourself to forgive yourself for the anger, and to forgive the target of that anger?

One of the things that has caused this planet to deteriorate so fast is mankind’s greed. Greed is based on a feeling of fear of not enough. But if we could but realise it, life is eternal. We live in a universe of unlimited prosperity, and there is no need for us ever to feel fear of poverty or lack. We have everything given to us by spirit that we could possibly want. Thoughts of greed and want only come about when we start to let fear enter our lives. This fear causes us to feel guilt. Our soul knows its own perfection and knows that there is nothing to be guilty of. We must allow ourselves to be forgiven for any, and all fear based feelings we have ever had.

As of 1999 there was another uprising of war in the Middle East. By 2002 there is still conflict in the Middle East. Until this country finds peace through forgiveness, the rest of the world will be unable to find it also. This country is important for the whole world as it is a vortex of very powerful energy. The Middle East is the entire focus of the world grid at zero point. It is the centre of the whole matrix, a major zero spot on the planet. It must become a peaceful spot before peace on earth can finally be realised.

I hope and pray that together, those that are enlightened can make a difference. So many wars have been fought in the name of religion, and it is one of the greatest tragedies of all time. The Taliban and his Muslim reign caused such havoc in Afghanistan, not to mention his hatred of the Americans. It is a case of Muslim against Christian all over again. It is through religion that wars of the worst kind have been fought. It is through religion that churches have tried to control mankind. Churches have become so powerful that they have held many in chains, spiritually.

The area around the Middle East holds a lot of negative energy. Only by sending healing energies to this area, to soothe the burning hatred and anger that is presently rife in the Middle East, will we possibly be able to help these tortured souls to forgive one another. The most important thing for these souls to receive at the present time, is understanding. They need to be understood before they can be forgiven. We really do have to ‘walk a mile in another man’s shoes’ before we can begin to understand where they are coming from. These people are brought up from young children to fight. They don’t know anything else. How can they learn to understand themselves as beings of light if the world continually refuses to forgive them and is constantly fighting them?

Forgiveness is such a hard thing to do sometimes. I have found that it is preferable in some circumstances to not try so hard to forgive, as this just puts more energy in the place where it is not needed. Sometimes if we just let go and not allow resentment to fester, things will dissolve by themselves. It is better to completely release others than try to forgive, if we find forgiveness too hard. That way we take away the energy that has caused the problem in the first place. The collapse of the Berlin wall came about, not through forgiveness, but through total apathy. Those who were on either side of the wall just lost interest in why it was there in the first place. Maybe that is the best thing we can do, if we find it difficult to forgive someone. Maybe just losing interest is the answer. By releasing hold on something or someone, we let it go.

It has been proven that the hundredth monkey syndrome works. This began when some monkeys living on an isolated island were given potatoes that were covered with sand. One monkey began to wash his potato in the sea to get off the sand, and one by one all the monkeys began doing it. On the mainland many miles away other monkeys suddenly began doing the same thing, and before long monkeys everywhere seemed to be doing the same. This is called the critical mass. This is why prayer and healing work, particularly when sent by a group of people as many more people feel it. The energy created through mass prayer or meditations is very strong. If one person joins with another the strength of the prayer is much stronger. As more join in, the affect can be far reaching. We were told "If two or more gather in my name, I will be there"… We can affect others by our thoughts and feelings and by our prayers. A small group sending healing can affect a whole country. The effect of the one affects the many.

If we can visualise one person receiving healing and forgiveness of self, we affect many more. Our most powerful tool is our imagination. I saw a picture of a youth holding out his bloodied hands from a window to others below who were applauding his murderous deed. If we can send positive feelings to help this one soul awaken to the fact that killing another does not stop anything. If we can send feelings to this youth, that his actions are pointless or help him remember that he will only have to re-live the same circumstances over and over, until he finally realises that love and forgiveness is the only answer to the conflict in the Middle East. If we can send him healing energies to heal himself through forgiveness, and somehow help him realise that war will only stop when he forgives his fellow man, then the affect will reach many more, and we will be assisting the world to find peace. It is the soldiers who do the fighting, not the heads of state. It takes each individual to awaken within himself. We do not need to be controlled by the heads of government.

The song "Universal Soldier", written in the 1960’s by Buffy Sainte-Marie, comes to mind:

"He’s the universal soldier,

And he really is to blame.

His orders come from far away no more.

They come from here and there, and you and me,

And brother don’t you see,

This is not the way we put an end to war . . ."

It goes on to say,

"He’s the one who gives his body

As a weapon of the war

And without him all this killing can’t go on. . .

He’s the won who must decide who’s to live and who’s to die

And he never sees the writing on the wall."

When each man on earth thinks for himself, this is when mankind will have a chance to put an end to war. The light directed by us to just one soldier, has an effect more far reaching than we could imagine.

Those light workers who are here on earth, people like Maryanne Williamson with her prayers of peace, and others, like James Twyman, who is singing peace prayers in all the war-torn parts of the world, are helping the earth tremendously. Time and again, Jimmy has gone to the war places – Ethiopia, Ireland, Bosnia, etc. and has asked for the assistance of prayers to go along with him as he sang his peace songs. As people joined him from all parts of the world, no matter where they were, things changed in those places where he was. Miracles happened, and wars ceased. Did we ever think we’d see a black President in South Africa? Did we ever think that the Berlin Wall would just collapse, or that communism would stop in Russia, or peace would come to the bitterness in Ireland? The power of prayer cannot be underestimated. It is one of the strongest ways of bringing about positive change to the world.

The Planet is Changing

One of the most potent things in forgiving another is to understand where they are coming from. If we can realise why they did what they did to us, understand their upbringing, and see the reasons behind why they do what they do, it makes forgiveness a lot easier. Forgiveness is beginning to be understood as a necessary tool in moving into this new age. We have seen in Melbourne in recent years, thousands of people walk a Reconciliation Walk in honour of those with whom we needed to reconcile with throughout the world. Young children up to old people took part in this walk, which was symbolised by hands of many colours being placed along the way.

Newspaper clipping (above – Ringwood Mail mid-2000) showing schools in Melbourne’s east part-taking of an international campaign, inspired by a social justice development officer and supported by the churches, to help a Debt Relief program. They are calling on countries like the US, Britain, Norway, France, Italy, Germany, Japan and Canada to cancel all debt in third world countries to that the poorer countries can provide basic essential human services like health care, clean water and education in accordance with basic human rights. They have symbolised this by making chains to be cut.

We have seen politicians apologise for the hurt and abuse done to the indigenous peoples of the planet. The pope also apologised to people of the world in recent times for the past abuse of the church.

There has now been gatherings of the Council of Elders of the indigenous races on earth, who have held knowledge and been at one with the earth all these years, and they are being allowed their say at long last. It appears peace, forgiveness and reconciliation are happening as the earth moves forward into the higher consciousness. It may be that the children are having something to do with it. Maybe the children (described later as Indigo) are bringing an awareness into the consciousness of the people and awakening them.

We’ve been told that forgiveness is the balm of the soul. Without forgiveness we cannot move forward. Without forgiveness we cannot move towards ascension with our planet. Forgiveness releases the feelings of hate and injustice we have allowed into our minds. It soothes every ache in our heart. It releases any pent up anger or hatred we might have. It allows us to be a whole being, living within a planet of polarities, and yet holding forth our armour of love towards our fellow being.

Forgiveness has to begin on a small scale first. When we have conflict in families, we are told:

"It is therefore in parents and children forgiving each other for what they have not done that the Holy Spirit’s lessons are learned. Each will have looked on the other, no longer to fulfill certain needs through specific roles, but as brother and sister who God has joined to walk forgiveness’ path together…"

Forgiving begins with those closest to us – our family, friends, relations and neighbours. When we have learned to forgive, we allow our hearts to open to peace on the Earth, and we become free from the tightness and blockages that held us in their chains. We need not feel guilt any longer. We need not feel fear or animosity towards another fellow human being. When there is no resentment left in us, we can then become open and sharing. We will have begun the journey of healing ourselves and finding release and have become a master of our emotions. Maybe then, we will find inner peace.

Chris Hamilton -